UWM is going to the Sweet 16!! Woo-Hoo!! I'm so psyched. I love March Madness. It's like the three or four weeks of the year that I just totally love. And to think...my undergrad university's basketball team has now made it to the elite field of 65 teams, down to 32, now down to 16.
Albeit, that have to take on Illinois in their regional in Chicago, but I think it will be a close game. Sure, Illinois has been ranked the #1 team in the nation and has some crazy 20 straight game winning streak or whatever the hell they did this year. I know it's a lot to wish for...but it would be sweet to see the Panthers make it to the elite 8.
GO PANTHERS!!
Monday, March 21, 2005
Sunday, March 06, 2005
SPRING BREAK!
Woo-Hoo! It's spring break! I'd flash my boobs, but what's the fun in that?!?
So, I'm spending the first half of my break working, working, and working. Ok, I'm also trying to get rid of this virus and inner ear infection that I have that's causing me to get really bad cases of vertigo. Yea, not fun. I've just spent the past 18 hours sleeping. No lie. No one's at home, so I figured I'd take this lovely opportunity to become one with my bed. I don't think I've gone to bed at 6:30 since I was in like first grade.
Brett's in Florida 'til Wednesday night covering spring training. So, I don't have him to bug. When he comes back we're going up to Vermont for a nice, long weekend. I get to meet his sister, Cory. She's home on break from Ohio.
Oooh...Brett told me he loved me. How sweet! I'm so psyched! I'm just so in love with him, too. As scared as I am about the next few months, I think we'll figure something out to make it work -- at least I really hope we do (that is, when we finally have this long-awaited talk we've been putting off).
It's just going to be fairly tough, I think with him graduating and getting a job. Plus, I'm probably going to moving home at the end of the summer. I think I've decided to take a leave of absence for a semester or two and just work a little while to catch up financially. I just don't have the means to move across town into a new place right now...not to mention I don't have the energy, patience, or manpower to do it. I just think right now that that's the best option for me.
Brett needs a place to live after the end of next month. I don't know if that's going to play any part in anything. Imaeyen and Melissa are subletting so if he wants to move in, he can. I just don't know how he feels about moving in with me. Bill and Todd were nice enough to offer him a place to stay, too.
It's just been really hard the past few weeks. I'm so scared that this is all going to go away, so I'd rather not even have the conversation, y'know? I'd just kinda like to avoid the whole thing. I've been so happy with him the past couple of months. It's been absolutely amazing. I really do love him. I just don't think I should be a factor at all in his future plans, though. He shouldn't have to worry about a girlfriend right now. He has the rest of his life for that. I dunno. I'm just really nervous about the whole thing.
I want to promise him the world. But I can't even promise him a month from now. I really wish I could try, though. I've never felt like this before. It's like we always talked about doing all these things together and I just want the chance to do them. I want to ride the ferris wheel at Navy Pier with him. I want him to meet my family. I want to be the one to take him to California for the first time. I just want the chance.
So, I'm spending the first half of my break working, working, and working. Ok, I'm also trying to get rid of this virus and inner ear infection that I have that's causing me to get really bad cases of vertigo. Yea, not fun. I've just spent the past 18 hours sleeping. No lie. No one's at home, so I figured I'd take this lovely opportunity to become one with my bed. I don't think I've gone to bed at 6:30 since I was in like first grade.
Brett's in Florida 'til Wednesday night covering spring training. So, I don't have him to bug. When he comes back we're going up to Vermont for a nice, long weekend. I get to meet his sister, Cory. She's home on break from Ohio.
Oooh...Brett told me he loved me. How sweet! I'm so psyched! I'm just so in love with him, too. As scared as I am about the next few months, I think we'll figure something out to make it work -- at least I really hope we do (that is, when we finally have this long-awaited talk we've been putting off).
It's just going to be fairly tough, I think with him graduating and getting a job. Plus, I'm probably going to moving home at the end of the summer. I think I've decided to take a leave of absence for a semester or two and just work a little while to catch up financially. I just don't have the means to move across town into a new place right now...not to mention I don't have the energy, patience, or manpower to do it. I just think right now that that's the best option for me.
Brett needs a place to live after the end of next month. I don't know if that's going to play any part in anything. Imaeyen and Melissa are subletting so if he wants to move in, he can. I just don't know how he feels about moving in with me. Bill and Todd were nice enough to offer him a place to stay, too.
It's just been really hard the past few weeks. I'm so scared that this is all going to go away, so I'd rather not even have the conversation, y'know? I'd just kinda like to avoid the whole thing. I've been so happy with him the past couple of months. It's been absolutely amazing. I really do love him. I just don't think I should be a factor at all in his future plans, though. He shouldn't have to worry about a girlfriend right now. He has the rest of his life for that. I dunno. I'm just really nervous about the whole thing.
I want to promise him the world. But I can't even promise him a month from now. I really wish I could try, though. I've never felt like this before. It's like we always talked about doing all these things together and I just want the chance to do them. I want to ride the ferris wheel at Navy Pier with him. I want him to meet my family. I want to be the one to take him to California for the first time. I just want the chance.
Sunday, February 13, 2005
Long Time No Post...
Ok, so I realize it has been almost two months since I really last blogged. It really is such a blur. A lot has happened.
The quick recap:
Graduating next December because I couldn't find a chair for my thesis topic
Went back to Milwaukee for two weeks
My dad moved to San Diego
My brother George is in the hospital for some weird skin infection
Me and Brett are officially a couple...YAY!
Went to DC to cover the inauguration
Went to Vermont to meet Brett's family
I got promoted to Asst. Manager at Cold Stone...LOL
Did I mention me and Brett are officially a couple?
I'm now 24 and hitting my quarterlife crisis
I'm producing a class documentary on Chinatown...shoot me, please
I'm interning at "Frontline" for WGBH
Yea, it's been a blur. Yet so crazily amazing...much in part to Brett. Yea, I don't know. It's not like we expected this to happen. But it is so amazing and we're both so happy.
The week I spent in Vermont...As worried and scared as I was, I really enjoyed my time up there. For one, it was so incredibly relaxing and beautiful. This gorgeous house overlooking a valley...how can that not be beautiful? And just having the chance to meet his family and see this other part of his life...It's like...He's letting me into his life and wants me to be a part of it. I guess I just didn't have that before.
He makes me feel so unbelievably special. I just can't get enough of him. I guess I've never really longed for someone before, but when we're not together, I just crave him so much. Like its so hard to not see him with our busy schedules. I want him to be the first person I see in the morning, or the last voice I hear at night, y'know? I get this funny tingle down my spine when he holds my hand as we walk down the street. I get tongue-tied when we're alone together and its just so hard to find the right words to express just how much he means to me.
It's kinda like that.
As for the rest of it...I'm still pretty busy. Work, work, work. While I only really have one technical class per week, I seem to always be at school. Otherwise, I have my internship over at Frontline, which is pretty cool. I'm working in the post-production department. This past week I got to help with a re-edit of a Donald Rumsfeld profile. Kinda cool.
This documentary on Chinatown is probably going to kill me. One, because I just don't have the time I need to dedicate to being as good of a producer as I know I probably can be. Two, I just don't have people who want to work hard on it. Little thing called senior-itis, I guess.
Dad moved to San Diego a few weeks ago. He's actually leaving for the Philippines tomorrow morning, so I really won't talk to him for another month or so when he's back. I wanted to go out to SD for spring break, but I just don't think I'll have the money for it. Hopefully, I'll have the time this summer to go there and Milwaukee...and bring Brett with me, so he has the chance to meet my crazy family now.
Ahh, so much going on...Ok, hopefully I'll be better with posting again... sigh...
The quick recap:
Yea, it's been a blur. Yet so crazily amazing...much in part to Brett. Yea, I don't know. It's not like we expected this to happen. But it is so amazing and we're both so happy.
The week I spent in Vermont...As worried and scared as I was, I really enjoyed my time up there. For one, it was so incredibly relaxing and beautiful. This gorgeous house overlooking a valley...how can that not be beautiful? And just having the chance to meet his family and see this other part of his life...It's like...He's letting me into his life and wants me to be a part of it. I guess I just didn't have that before.
He makes me feel so unbelievably special. I just can't get enough of him. I guess I've never really longed for someone before, but when we're not together, I just crave him so much. Like its so hard to not see him with our busy schedules. I want him to be the first person I see in the morning, or the last voice I hear at night, y'know? I get this funny tingle down my spine when he holds my hand as we walk down the street. I get tongue-tied when we're alone together and its just so hard to find the right words to express just how much he means to me.
It's kinda like that.
As for the rest of it...I'm still pretty busy. Work, work, work. While I only really have one technical class per week, I seem to always be at school. Otherwise, I have my internship over at Frontline, which is pretty cool. I'm working in the post-production department. This past week I got to help with a re-edit of a Donald Rumsfeld profile. Kinda cool.
This documentary on Chinatown is probably going to kill me. One, because I just don't have the time I need to dedicate to being as good of a producer as I know I probably can be. Two, I just don't have people who want to work hard on it. Little thing called senior-itis, I guess.
Dad moved to San Diego a few weeks ago. He's actually leaving for the Philippines tomorrow morning, so I really won't talk to him for another month or so when he's back. I wanted to go out to SD for spring break, but I just don't think I'll have the money for it. Hopefully, I'll have the time this summer to go there and Milwaukee...and bring Brett with me, so he has the chance to meet my crazy family now.
Ahh, so much going on...Ok, hopefully I'll be better with posting again... sigh...
Thursday, December 02, 2004
Cereal Day or Night
This is such an awesome concept... check out Cereality's website at www.cereality.com
I don't know why I haven't thought of this -- ok, I probably have, but I just haven't acted upon my business ventures. I can't wait to visit the store in Chicago, or perhaps, I'm just crazy enough for a roadtrip to Philly to eat cereal.
And honestly, you know I would do it, too. Does anyone remember the pilgrimage to Chicago just for Superdawg? Well hell...that was gosh-darn awesome hot dog. This must be really good cereal.
Wow, this just totally set the tone for my day...I'm psyched!
I don't know why I haven't thought of this -- ok, I probably have, but I just haven't acted upon my business ventures. I can't wait to visit the store in Chicago, or perhaps, I'm just crazy enough for a roadtrip to Philly to eat cereal.
And honestly, you know I would do it, too. Does anyone remember the pilgrimage to Chicago just for Superdawg? Well hell...that was gosh-darn awesome hot dog. This must be really good cereal.
Wow, this just totally set the tone for my day...I'm psyched!
Sunday, November 28, 2004
Monday, November 01, 2004
Chris's Life Lesson #3
Chris's Life Lesson #3
Part I. Don't think because you want to impress the guy you like, means that you can handle drinking Wild Turkey shots.
Part II. And don't swish it around in your mouth first.
Your stomach will not like you the next day, or even two days later. There's a strong burning sensation and, really, burning is not fun.
It's better to impress that person you like with your wit, intellect, and fun smile. Not by trying to drink them under the table. Not that I even could come close.
But, I do have to admit that I do have a lot of fun even if he's trying to pick drinks for me that will make me nauseous twenty minutes later.
I'm too smitten...
Part I. Don't think because you want to impress the guy you like, means that you can handle drinking Wild Turkey shots.
Part II. And don't swish it around in your mouth first.
Your stomach will not like you the next day, or even two days later. There's a strong burning sensation and, really, burning is not fun.
It's better to impress that person you like with your wit, intellect, and fun smile. Not by trying to drink them under the table. Not that I even could come close.
But, I do have to admit that I do have a lot of fun even if he's trying to pick drinks for me that will make me nauseous twenty minutes later.
I'm too smitten...
Sunday, October 31, 2004
It's Not Easy Being Shy
Apparently, it's a character flaw for one to be shy. Ok, maybe not a character flaw per se, but at least some sort of flaw, or possibly hinderance is a better word.
Ah, well...Who knows I could've made out with a boy last night if only I had more guts. Instead, I'm putting a lot of faith into him to make a move.
Still, last night was fun...especially that part where we were holding hands. {Insert big, glowing grin here}
Yea, well...Someone is supposed to call me tonight when they're done with a midterm and if they want to hang out. And honestly, I'm just tired. I'm going to take a nap...
Ah, well...Who knows I could've made out with a boy last night if only I had more guts. Instead, I'm putting a lot of faith into him to make a move.
Still, last night was fun...especially that part where we were holding hands. {Insert big, glowing grin here}
Yea, well...Someone is supposed to call me tonight when they're done with a midterm and if they want to hang out. And honestly, I'm just tired. I'm going to take a nap...
Friday, October 29, 2004
Tuesday, October 26, 2004
Dear Sally...
I guess when your heart gets broken, you sort of start to see the cracks in everything. I'm convinced that tragedy wants to harden us, and that our mission is to never let it.
--Sally Reardon (Janeane Garafolo), "Felicity" (1998)
--Sally Reardon (Janeane Garafolo), "Felicity" (1998)
It's Been a Few...
It certainly has been a few days since I last wrote. So, in a nutshell...It hasn't been a good 72-96 some hours. It's actually been quite painful. It is so hard watching people that I care about hurt so, so much by the events that have been happening. I just want to reach out to them and let them know that I'm there for them -- one person in particular.
God, it just isn't fair.
Why? It doesn't make sense. I know some things never will make sense, but this just isn't fair. Why her? Why now? I wish I could take all the pain away from everyone who is hurting right now...but, I can't. It is so hard to watch them trying so hard, and working so feverishly to the point of exhaustion.
I am honestly very, very worried about their health and their sanity. I don't know what to do. It's breaking me up inside because I want to say something, but I don't know if it's my place to say something, y'know?
It's like I care so much for this person and I can't even tell him. I don't even know how -- or when -- he started to mean so much to me. And honestly, I don't want to mistake the feelings that I'm having right now from friendship or into something else...because I just don't know what they are. I am so confused. I'm trying to be there, but then at the same time, I know (and I feel) that I'm pulling away. I'm trying to run again. And I'm scared.
I see things on his face that I've seen on another face. They're things that scared me three years ago and made me run then. I'm sick of running. But at the same time...this wasn't in my plan. I don't need this stress and the added pressure and drama. I just want to be. I just can't stop thinking about him, though, and I guess that means something...somewhere. I just don't know what.
I'm so afraid I'm falling for him. I can't believe I just said that. How can I possible be falling for someone who I have yet to even go on a date with? That isnt' possible, is it? I am so scared by the feelings that I am having.
I just want to run again...
God, it just isn't fair.
Why? It doesn't make sense. I know some things never will make sense, but this just isn't fair. Why her? Why now? I wish I could take all the pain away from everyone who is hurting right now...but, I can't. It is so hard to watch them trying so hard, and working so feverishly to the point of exhaustion.
I am honestly very, very worried about their health and their sanity. I don't know what to do. It's breaking me up inside because I want to say something, but I don't know if it's my place to say something, y'know?
It's like I care so much for this person and I can't even tell him. I don't even know how -- or when -- he started to mean so much to me. And honestly, I don't want to mistake the feelings that I'm having right now from friendship or into something else...because I just don't know what they are. I am so confused. I'm trying to be there, but then at the same time, I know (and I feel) that I'm pulling away. I'm trying to run again. And I'm scared.
I see things on his face that I've seen on another face. They're things that scared me three years ago and made me run then. I'm sick of running. But at the same time...this wasn't in my plan. I don't need this stress and the added pressure and drama. I just want to be. I just can't stop thinking about him, though, and I guess that means something...somewhere. I just don't know what.
I'm so afraid I'm falling for him. I can't believe I just said that. How can I possible be falling for someone who I have yet to even go on a date with? That isnt' possible, is it? I am so scared by the feelings that I am having.
I just want to run again...
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